Friday, December 10, 2010
I've noticed an increasing trend on my blog over the last few months, something that I've just sort of overlooked, brushed off as a fluke, and maybe even not published a post or two because out of fear. It's something that's weighed on me for awhile, and brought a sort of weight that I'm struggling to carry.
I've lost many readers. Like, a lot of them. Some of them were people whom I considered to be good friends, after all, it's an intimate thing we do as bloggers, sharing our families and our hearts desires so publicly like this. You people know me. If you're a devoted follower then you know the ins and outs of my life and found them interesting enough to keep coming back to see what tomorrow brings for myself and my family. I know this, because it's the way I feel about most of you and your blogs (trust me, even if I don't comment every single time, I'm there in the shadows reading about the ins and outs of your life too. There's just probably a four year old hanging on me while I'm doing it, preventing me from typing.)
So when did I start seeing this trend, these peoples presence start to fade? When I started talking about Jesus.
It would be easy to just stop. I could keep writing fluffy little posts day in and day out and show you all some cute pictures of my boys and be done with it. But I know that's not what those who still read come here for. You come here because in one way or another, as a mother, a wife, a crafter, or a friend, you and I are relatable. And I hope that when it comes to my life and the things that I write about, you can appreciate the honesty in them. Because life is not always easy and it's not always pretty. In fact it rarely ever is. But the Lord is my constant encouragement and is the biggest part of my life. How could I exclude him from any aspect of it, let along this journal of my life, loves, and thoughts.
So while I was at first confused, I am now strong. I will not be afraid to have such a loving presence in my life that shines through every little thing I do, including my posting here. I make no apologies, because this blog is authentic to my everyday. And everyday I am thankful for the one who died so that I could live to experience all of the ups and downs that I share here with you each and every day. And every day I pray and turn to Jesus for his guidence and love. And it's my hope that you can relate to that or appreciate it in a way that makes you want to keep coming back for more.
And for those of you that don't, well I'm sorry to see you leave, but don't let the proverbial door hit you on the rump as you go.